When we shut down work, it didn’t hit me right away. I felt sad that we didn’t work because I knew I would miss my coworkers with everyone’s smiling faces, and the positivity that brought. As each month passed, I honestly started missing work a lot, along with forgetting stuff about work and helping all the clients. I still wonder how all our clients are doing and if they are able to work on their goals. Seeing and hearing how well they are doing on making their goals makes me so happy. I can see it also doing a great deal for our clients.
I’ve been doing things to cope with the situation of not working. I have been going to Shasta dam and driving around. I try to social distance but it’s really hard because some people don’t listen to the guidelines. They get really close and I don’t like it. One time I was at the grocery store and I heard a guy say his kid had the virus. To be honest, I freaked out and bolted out of the store. I felt bad, but I also didn’t want the virus.
When people cough and I don’t know them I try to keep my distance as far as I can. It’s not because I want to be mean, it’s because I don’t know if it’s a smoker’s cough, asthma or something they had. I honestly feel for people who have asthma and allergies because they have to explain to everyone that they don’t have anything. I had to deal with telling people I had allergies for a while, and it sucked. I can only imagine how others feel who have things like asthma.
I haven’t been driving a lot recently as I have been mostly staying indoors. I try to go trail hiking though because I love the outside air and I can’t stand being inside for too long. Things were rough for me for a while because of personal issues, but they have gotten better when someone suggested I talk to more people. I did that and things got semi better.
But things got really good recently because I met someone who treats me the way I’ve always wanted to be treated. She says sweet things and she has goals, like to one day have a family just like I do. I swear she was sent by gods angel. I felt I screwed up with her bad because I wasn’t getting any texts from her. I didn’t have a clue there was a problem with the phones until I got a text from her friend, saying it was her! My gosh, I swear I was crying happy tears. She went to great lengths just to talk to me and I swear this was the best day ever through this entire virus crap. Talking to this person has helped me get through this virus issue. I hope once this is all over, I get to see her.
I still get frustrated in the stores because there are so many people. What I have been doing to avoid being too close is to let them pass. There isn’t always enough room to walk honestly. At one point I also was worried if I was going to have enough money to pay bills and make it. I got really worried, but after talking to my payee I found out I was good, and it helped ease my worry a lot.
I can’t wait for things to get back to normal because then maybe people will be nicer and won’t drive crazy. Maybe that is hopeful wishing though. Doctors have been different, but I’m glad they are still able to do their job. I don’t know what I’d do if doctors couldn’t do their job during this, especially the therapist. Sometimes people only get to talk to their therapist instead of just anyone, and I could see a lot of people getting excited to talking to someone. I mean, who doesn’t? It’s a good thing.
I feel I’ve been lucky to have a lot of support to talk to, and that businesses like my mechanic have been open. I wish I could do something like a thank you card or something else to thank them for helping me and many others in this time of need.
